So tomorrow, August 28th 2017 will be my first day back to college….
I haven’t sat in a classroom, did homework, studied, or anything related to school in nearly 15 years. When I got out of high school I went to a community college for one semester. Yes you read correctly. ONE. People ask me why did I quit and even though it was a very personal reason maybe one day I will be able to express why on a more deeper level. So for now only a select few and the board of education ( because I had to complete a personal essay as to why I should be accepted) will know the true reason as to why I made the tough decision to be a college drop out.
During the 15 years I have went through a series of changes. I battled with my identity and I didn’t know what I wanted to be because at the time music was my life. Music and dancing. I LOVED choreographing dances. I use to sing in a church choir in my younger age, I would write songs to instrumentals, I was on a tv show for a Denver (Colorado) singing competition by KS107.5, and I even auditioned for American idol. Singing was everything to me! Long story short, I came to the realization that I was not going to be the next Whitney Houston or Beyoncé. I needed to move on.
It’s tough when something you are so passionate about is all you know and doesn’t really require a degree. I never wanted to be a music teacher. Hell, I wanted to be the main event at the concert! So now I felt like I had no skill, my talent slipped away from me to where I only would sing in my car and in the shower, and NOTHING , I mean absolutely NOTHING intrigued me career wise.
I didn’t want to be a doctor, a lawyer, or police officer. And I HATED the corporate world. But somehow living on your own at 21, having your own car, making $13 an hour was what I settled with. During my 5 years as a jr Underwriter at a mortgage company, somehow I convinced myself that experience and who you know is what will get you to the top and ahead of the game. And if you don’t believe me, refer to my blog I wrote back April 13, 2015 called “I just want to BYOB ( Be Your Own Boss). Now to an extent, this is true. Experience provides you the skill but the degree gets you the salary you deserve. As common sense as this sounds, it took me a LONG time to grasp this. More so because I made excuses and truly didn’t want to put in the time, effort and the overall grind. Not to mention, to be in debt! lol. But aside from the salary, I just want to be college educated. It has become important to me. That’s how I know I am growing and becoming the woman I always wanted to be. I’m to the point where I don’t even care if I don’t do anything in my major of Kinesiology because the ultimate plan is to still Be My Own Boss, but most importantly, I want to be an inspiration to our young generation and set an example.
So what motivated me to go back? I know you are probably sick of reading so I’ll get to the final point.
Meet my sister Ebone’.
My inspiration, my motivation, and the person who expires me to grow.
It is true to what they say to always surround yourself around people that will only lift you higher, make you better, and pushes you to be great!
I LOVE her to death for always being understanding, non-judgmental, and supportive. THANK YOU!
( Pic was taken in 2013 – She graduated with her MBA!! AYYEEEEE lol)
My other inspiration believe it or not, was the movie Hidden Figures. After crying my eyes out from watching this movie my heart burned with fire from seeing and now knowing what African American Women had to go through to take classes and earn their education. These ladies let NOTHING stop them from being the most intelligent and incredible women in NASA. This definitely lit a fire under my ass and took me back to 15 years ago that for a minute, I sat with regret for allowing a situation hinder my education. This movie is what sparked the ambition person inside of me and I recommend everyone to watch it!
So NO regrets. And not going to look back to what should have happened when possibilities are endless! It’s time to put all that behind me and prepare for a new chapter in my life. It’s not going to be easy, and some days I probably will want to quit. But I can’t. I’m in this for long the run!
PS Readers- My major is Kinesiology with a concentrate in Health Promotions. If you wonder how I got into Health and Fitness. Feel free to Read My Fitness Story by checking out my About Me Section.
And if you feel like it’s too late to go back to school, it’s not!
Go Mean Green!